Song of the Day: Grandma's Hands by Bill Withers
Im a little sad, but not much. My grandmother had been complaining of chest and side pains for two or three days straight. My mom finally convinced her to go to the hospital. She is a very independent woman and doesnt like people to take care of her. I was a little upset when I went to see her at her house Thursday morning. She was in a lot of pain and her face told it all. I didnt like it and it felt like that would be the last time i would see her. Im glad my mom got her to go to the hospital. She was admitted on Friday and Tonight I am staying the night with her.
By the grace of God, my aunt, uncle, and cousin and my other grandma were coming down here this weekend anyway. It feels good to have the family together again. The last time they were down here, it was for a happy occasion. This time its a not so happy one. Im just glad all the family is together again and Im thankful we all pull together in a time of need.
It is true that the family is the basic unit. Without it, much will go undone. I believe that if the family structure would return to the state at which it once was, a lot of problems would be resolved and prevented. A family doesnt have to be a mother, father, and 2.5 kids, but any form of a solid, loving unit that will come together when the time is needed. Im thankful to the Lord that I have many units to band together on my behalf.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Rships.....OSN
Song of the Day: Mad by Ne-yo
The word "relationship" has not been defined in its proper terms. Everyone is in a relationship with everyone, but there are different kinds. I have relationships with my parents, my nieces, my co-workers and a select few people I call friends. The most obvious kinds of relationships are those you have with the opposite sex. They are also the most complicated. Why is this?
Im in a relationship that is "quite complex" (shout out to Khalifa). I have known this guy for a year and a half. We met over the internet and developed a relationship. We were deeply in love, but circumstances got in the way of what we wanted to achieve. As of right now we are not boyfriend and girlfriend, but we love one another. I dont want to be committed to anyone now, but he is always there for me, and you cannot deny that its not love.
On the other hand, the "online" thing is getting tiresome. We work different shifts and there is a significant difference in our ages. I want a man who is at a similar place in his life like I am in mine. I want someone physically and mentally attractive, God-fearing, in touch with his emotions and knows how to communicate them effectively. Near the top of that list is someone who will find me, and be interested in me, a man who is waiting for me, and seeking me. He will come, probably when I least expect it.
OSN, I was with my cousin today and we passes by the local corner store. Her mother was standing outside talking to her ex and his brother. She was not at all happy. They had a nasty break up and she wants nothing else to do with him. She told me that he stalks her when she visits her new boo and call her at 2 a.m. when no one is awake. He tryna talk to her on the low but she aint having it. He has a girlfriend but he wants her back. I think it has something to do with the fact that her name is tatted on his chest.
The word "relationship" has not been defined in its proper terms. Everyone is in a relationship with everyone, but there are different kinds. I have relationships with my parents, my nieces, my co-workers and a select few people I call friends. The most obvious kinds of relationships are those you have with the opposite sex. They are also the most complicated. Why is this?
Im in a relationship that is "quite complex" (shout out to Khalifa). I have known this guy for a year and a half. We met over the internet and developed a relationship. We were deeply in love, but circumstances got in the way of what we wanted to achieve. As of right now we are not boyfriend and girlfriend, but we love one another. I dont want to be committed to anyone now, but he is always there for me, and you cannot deny that its not love.
On the other hand, the "online" thing is getting tiresome. We work different shifts and there is a significant difference in our ages. I want a man who is at a similar place in his life like I am in mine. I want someone physically and mentally attractive, God-fearing, in touch with his emotions and knows how to communicate them effectively. Near the top of that list is someone who will find me, and be interested in me, a man who is waiting for me, and seeking me. He will come, probably when I least expect it.
OSN, I was with my cousin today and we passes by the local corner store. Her mother was standing outside talking to her ex and his brother. She was not at all happy. They had a nasty break up and she wants nothing else to do with him. She told me that he stalks her when she visits her new boo and call her at 2 a.m. when no one is awake. He tryna talk to her on the low but she aint having it. He has a girlfriend but he wants her back. I think it has something to do with the fact that her name is tatted on his chest.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
The Roughest Week Ever
Song of the Day: Large Amounts by Ludacris
OSN!!! I had one of the roughest weeks of my life. At my summer job, there was a lot of confusion going on. Mon-Thurs. a group of workforce kids come and help us get things done. YEAH RIGHT! Them niggas dont work for nothing. All they wanna do is come in, sit down, eat for free, and make fun of their supervisor, JO. She really aint no better than them. She doesnt really make them do anything because she just wants a check herself.
The meals we provide must be delivered. Everyday this week, there was a problem with delivery. Some people got their food late, some people didnt come pick it up. Alot of people got meals, but in the wrong quantities. It was a very hectic and busy week. It will all pay off when I get paid on the 26th. I wonder what I will purchase first. Im supposed to by a television, but i really want and iPod touch. I also want shoes, put IDK which to buy first, Nikes, VANS, Sperries, soooo many choices.
Lord please help me to enjoy the week ahead. Give me strength to complete the tasks that are set before me. Allow Your glory to shine through me, so that when people look at me, they will see You. Love me, Lead me and Guide me. Protect my mind and keep in strong. Make me into the person you would have me to be, IJN, Amen.
OSN!!! I had one of the roughest weeks of my life. At my summer job, there was a lot of confusion going on. Mon-Thurs. a group of workforce kids come and help us get things done. YEAH RIGHT! Them niggas dont work for nothing. All they wanna do is come in, sit down, eat for free, and make fun of their supervisor, JO. She really aint no better than them. She doesnt really make them do anything because she just wants a check herself.
The meals we provide must be delivered. Everyday this week, there was a problem with delivery. Some people got their food late, some people didnt come pick it up. Alot of people got meals, but in the wrong quantities. It was a very hectic and busy week. It will all pay off when I get paid on the 26th. I wonder what I will purchase first. Im supposed to by a television, but i really want and iPod touch. I also want shoes, put IDK which to buy first, Nikes, VANS, Sperries, soooo many choices.
Lord please help me to enjoy the week ahead. Give me strength to complete the tasks that are set before me. Allow Your glory to shine through me, so that when people look at me, they will see You. Love me, Lead me and Guide me. Protect my mind and keep in strong. Make me into the person you would have me to be, IJN, Amen.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Im Fine!
Song of the Day: Halle Berry by Superstarr
This week at work, I surprised myself. Much credit to my mother for advising me to be professional. I was the best dressed thing up in there, everyday that week. Even though I am having some weight management issues, my mother and I make sure that my clothes game is on point. I guess that can make up for the 100+ extra pounds I carry on my frame. I recently found out that my ex lost a pile of weight....ugh. IDK why but I feel like I will be running into him at some point this summer, so I must be on my game at all times, even if Im just going to Wal-Mart.
Even though I dont possess the qualities most men would find appealing, I know Im fine and what I may lack in Physical appearance, I more than make up with intelligence, drive, personality, spirituality, sense of humor, and well-rounded ness. I know it, others know it, its just hard sometimes to actually live it out. From this point on, I affirm that Im fine as a B*tch, and err nigga wanna holla. :)
Side note: working 15 days straight aint no joke, but i gotta get some money, cant wait til im able to put music on my iPod touch =)
This week at work, I surprised myself. Much credit to my mother for advising me to be professional. I was the best dressed thing up in there, everyday that week. Even though I am having some weight management issues, my mother and I make sure that my clothes game is on point. I guess that can make up for the 100+ extra pounds I carry on my frame. I recently found out that my ex lost a pile of weight....ugh. IDK why but I feel like I will be running into him at some point this summer, so I must be on my game at all times, even if Im just going to Wal-Mart.
Even though I dont possess the qualities most men would find appealing, I know Im fine and what I may lack in Physical appearance, I more than make up with intelligence, drive, personality, spirituality, sense of humor, and well-rounded ness. I know it, others know it, its just hard sometimes to actually live it out. From this point on, I affirm that Im fine as a B*tch, and err nigga wanna holla. :)
Side note: working 15 days straight aint no joke, but i gotta get some money, cant wait til im able to put music on my iPod touch =)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
New Job Yall!!!
Song of the Day: Swag Suffer by FLY
OSN!!! I got the job at a non-profit organization that I have wanted since I volunteered here last summer. My mother also works here. Monday was my first day and it was fun. There is a lady here, we will refer to her as Elle, that is sooo funny. She has seven children and a husband who is kinda retarded. Everything Elle says is funny and she definitely has us cracking up all the time. The kitchen staff are some characters as well. Dee and Angel are two older ladies who have wierd philosophies on life. Dee talks really fast and likes to holler out of car windows when she goes places with my mother.... Angel cant talk at all and everyone picks on her, but she is always nice to me and take up for me. There is another monitor, that what I am, her name is Victoria and I cant stand her. She had a higher position last year but she got demoted because she never turned in her paper work on time. Last year there was another monitor with flaming red hair. She wasnt re-hired because last year, she never did her job and would go to random funerals when she was supposed to be on the clock.
I work with mostly African Americans, except for one man, but he may as well be black because you would never know he was white my hearing his voice. I love my people and my people love me. I like working with black peeps because we know how to have a good time. This group of people knows how to work first and have fun later. There is a tradition that on Fridays, everyone contributes money and we have and extra special lunch. Last year we had meatloaf, chicken, fish, breakfast, roast pork, and all the sides you could think of. I love the people here and my boss so nice. We can call her Angie. She is new to the program like me and in my interview I thought she was a little, "removed" from the culture, but she aint. She fits in with the rest of us and She is nice and understanding. Anytime I have a problem, she is calm and lets me know how to solve it. And the best part about this job, $11 and hour!!!!! :)
OSN!!! I got the job at a non-profit organization that I have wanted since I volunteered here last summer. My mother also works here. Monday was my first day and it was fun. There is a lady here, we will refer to her as Elle, that is sooo funny. She has seven children and a husband who is kinda retarded. Everything Elle says is funny and she definitely has us cracking up all the time. The kitchen staff are some characters as well. Dee and Angel are two older ladies who have wierd philosophies on life. Dee talks really fast and likes to holler out of car windows when she goes places with my mother.... Angel cant talk at all and everyone picks on her, but she is always nice to me and take up for me. There is another monitor, that what I am, her name is Victoria and I cant stand her. She had a higher position last year but she got demoted because she never turned in her paper work on time. Last year there was another monitor with flaming red hair. She wasnt re-hired because last year, she never did her job and would go to random funerals when she was supposed to be on the clock.
I work with mostly African Americans, except for one man, but he may as well be black because you would never know he was white my hearing his voice. I love my people and my people love me. I like working with black peeps because we know how to have a good time. This group of people knows how to work first and have fun later. There is a tradition that on Fridays, everyone contributes money and we have and extra special lunch. Last year we had meatloaf, chicken, fish, breakfast, roast pork, and all the sides you could think of. I love the people here and my boss so nice. We can call her Angie. She is new to the program like me and in my interview I thought she was a little, "removed" from the culture, but she aint. She fits in with the rest of us and She is nice and understanding. Anytime I have a problem, she is calm and lets me know how to solve it. And the best part about this job, $11 and hour!!!!! :)
Friday, June 5, 2009
Shopping Spree!!!
Song of the Day: Through it in The Bag by Fabolous feat. The Dream
Wednesday I went on a mini- shopping spree with my mom and nieces. I felt bad for my mom because my nieces were acting extra ragedy. She kept having to spank them in public and as African Americans, we do physically discipline our children, but we dont like to do it in public. Im glad she went with me because she really helped me find some cute clothes. I was happy that I got the clothes that I did.
Later that night, a female friend and I went to Sonic for the free root beer floats. She dont even like root beer but she still went. I saw someone I knew there. This chick had on hot pink pink pants and a neon yellow, skin tight shirt....OSN. I was mad because I went to see her the day before and she had on the same thing, about to go somewhere. She wasnt tryna speak or anything. I really think she is a cool person but for some reason she acts like she dont like me. I hate when people do that. Oh well, its whatever.
I got the call of an almost lifetime. I got hired for this job that I wanted. I was so happy. I will finally be at a desk (kinda) and doing paperwork. And I will be doing a service to my community. And the people who work there are hilarious. I start Monday and one of the shirts I bought Wednesday will be a part of my "first day of work" outfit. Imma be soooo fly, I might be walking on the moon. I really hope there will be some fine looking men working with me, or that I just might come into contact with someone who will be on my level enough to chill with on occasion. Only time will tell......
Wednesday I went on a mini- shopping spree with my mom and nieces. I felt bad for my mom because my nieces were acting extra ragedy. She kept having to spank them in public and as African Americans, we do physically discipline our children, but we dont like to do it in public. Im glad she went with me because she really helped me find some cute clothes. I was happy that I got the clothes that I did.
Later that night, a female friend and I went to Sonic for the free root beer floats. She dont even like root beer but she still went. I saw someone I knew there. This chick had on hot pink pink pants and a neon yellow, skin tight shirt....OSN. I was mad because I went to see her the day before and she had on the same thing, about to go somewhere. She wasnt tryna speak or anything. I really think she is a cool person but for some reason she acts like she dont like me. I hate when people do that. Oh well, its whatever.
I got the call of an almost lifetime. I got hired for this job that I wanted. I was so happy. I will finally be at a desk (kinda) and doing paperwork. And I will be doing a service to my community. And the people who work there are hilarious. I start Monday and one of the shirts I bought Wednesday will be a part of my "first day of work" outfit. Imma be soooo fly, I might be walking on the moon. I really hope there will be some fine looking men working with me, or that I just might come into contact with someone who will be on my level enough to chill with on occasion. Only time will tell......
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Umm....what to do?!?!??!
Song of the Day: Day and Night by Kid Cudi
Once again I ran errands in my small city. It was about 90 degrees today and for some reason I dont have any shorts or reasonable short sleeve shirts. I went to see my elderly grandmother. I love her to death. I picked up some things from the local Wal-Mart. Ugh I feel like there is nothing here for me. I have yet to find my summer love, I have yet to receive my first pay check (tomorrow, yay!) and none of my friends seem to have time to chill. All I do all day is poke around, run errands, scope Facebook, and spend time at home, DOING NOTHING. I guess things will get better as time passes on. I plan to go shopping tomorrow. I cant wait to get up in the morning and check my bank account. I also plan to receive swimming privileges and the YWCA. I love to swim and its also a good way to get my beautiful Black body into shape.
There has been a lot of disturbing things happening in the media. I promise if I hear one more thing about John and Kate plus 8, i might just kill someone. If they are going to get divorced then thats fine, well not really, but ish happens. The kids are not being exploited and no child labor laws are being broken. Its reality tv, they are living life and being themselves. Divorces are real, children playing and whatnot is real. Peeps just need to leave them alone and watch or turn it off.
And then there is Spec. This nigga gonna grind on camera, call out R&B superstars and challenge them to a grind-off, but claim the video is for the ladies. He wanted them dudes to see him grinding in red drawls and wanted them to grind back. I wont say he is gay, but the video was definitely NOT for the ladies. It was for the niggas he called out. Oh well, who am I to judge? I wont judge, but I will call them like I see them.
Once again I ran errands in my small city. It was about 90 degrees today and for some reason I dont have any shorts or reasonable short sleeve shirts. I went to see my elderly grandmother. I love her to death. I picked up some things from the local Wal-Mart. Ugh I feel like there is nothing here for me. I have yet to find my summer love, I have yet to receive my first pay check (tomorrow, yay!) and none of my friends seem to have time to chill. All I do all day is poke around, run errands, scope Facebook, and spend time at home, DOING NOTHING. I guess things will get better as time passes on. I plan to go shopping tomorrow. I cant wait to get up in the morning and check my bank account. I also plan to receive swimming privileges and the YWCA. I love to swim and its also a good way to get my beautiful Black body into shape.
There has been a lot of disturbing things happening in the media. I promise if I hear one more thing about John and Kate plus 8, i might just kill someone. If they are going to get divorced then thats fine, well not really, but ish happens. The kids are not being exploited and no child labor laws are being broken. Its reality tv, they are living life and being themselves. Divorces are real, children playing and whatnot is real. Peeps just need to leave them alone and watch or turn it off.
And then there is Spec. This nigga gonna grind on camera, call out R&B superstars and challenge them to a grind-off, but claim the video is for the ladies. He wanted them dudes to see him grinding in red drawls and wanted them to grind back. I wont say he is gay, but the video was definitely NOT for the ladies. It was for the niggas he called out. Oh well, who am I to judge? I wont judge, but I will call them like I see them.
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