Song of the Day: Gangsta Party by Yo Gotti
Friday I got a call from an old friend. I've known this chick since I was in the sixth grade. I hadnt seen her in about a year. She was trying to get a group of our friends together for a reunion dinner. I was excited to hear this for a number of reasons. I didnt have any plans for that night, I wanted to see some of these people, AND I DIDNT HAVE ANY PLANS FOR THAT NIGHT. To make a long story short, It was basically just me and her. Most of those African Americans couldnt make it for one reason or another. A guy friend of ours came extra late. He mostly paid attention to her, but I didnt mind. He was the type to go for her type and he aint nothing to be stuntin or pressed over. The night was good, but uneventful.
This morning, before work, I watch Joel Olsteen. I was about to watch Boondocks, but since I was unable to attend church, I needed a little word. He gave the most inspirational message I had ever heard. As of today, I am expecting My Lord to do remarkable things in my life. I believe that if I keep the faith and remain righteous, He will rain out blessing on my life and the lives that I touch. I love the Lord and He is good. I learned today that you will get what you expect. I will expect Jesus to flood my life with wonderful blessing, beyond anything I can imagine. I know He will do great things for the organizations I am in, and even for my enemies, they will get will what the Lord has in store for them. Oh what a feeling.......
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Just Life
Song of the Day: My Life, Your Entertainment by T.I.
There are many things that I struggle with on a daily basis. I dont know why but there is a constant battle between good and evil going on with in me every day. I know the Lord knows what is going on, and I know that He will never put more on me that I am able to bare, it just seems crazy at times. Sometimes I feel that I want to abandon everything I have ever been taught and live life on the edge, not caring about the consequences or who I may hurt in the process. At other times, I live like a nun, not doing anything slightly out of order and I like it that way. There must be only one solution to this, I AM HUMAN.
Oh gosh! I guess I can only take it one day at a time and depend on the Lord to take me through it. He is the only one that is able. If more people would believe that, life would be easier. But it is waaaay easier said than done. Trust me, I know. In the back of my mind I know it to be true, but to truly live it out is the true victory. I know one day I will get there and when I do, no one will ever look at me, or treat me the same ever again.
There are many things that I struggle with on a daily basis. I dont know why but there is a constant battle between good and evil going on with in me every day. I know the Lord knows what is going on, and I know that He will never put more on me that I am able to bare, it just seems crazy at times. Sometimes I feel that I want to abandon everything I have ever been taught and live life on the edge, not caring about the consequences or who I may hurt in the process. At other times, I live like a nun, not doing anything slightly out of order and I like it that way. There must be only one solution to this, I AM HUMAN.
Oh gosh! I guess I can only take it one day at a time and depend on the Lord to take me through it. He is the only one that is able. If more people would believe that, life would be easier. But it is waaaay easier said than done. Trust me, I know. In the back of my mind I know it to be true, but to truly live it out is the true victory. I know one day I will get there and when I do, no one will ever look at me, or treat me the same ever again.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Memorial Day Weekend
Song of the Day: Today was a Good Day by Ice Cube
My aunt and uncle and cousin came down to my small city for my cousin's graduation. We all were very proud of him. He is a very smart individual who made some dumb decisions, but that God he got it together.
For the first time in a long time, I got to sit on the front porch of my grandmother's house and catch up with my family. It felt so good. If I could, I would do that everyday, or at least every weekend. I only wish that my aunt would have invested in some candles to keep the mosquitoes away. These bites on my ankles, arms, fingers, and legs are driving me crazy.
Sorry such a short post. Im just extra excited about seeing my family. Also I want to keep it positive and leave the negative happenings in the past where they belong.
My aunt and uncle and cousin came down to my small city for my cousin's graduation. We all were very proud of him. He is a very smart individual who made some dumb decisions, but that God he got it together.
For the first time in a long time, I got to sit on the front porch of my grandmother's house and catch up with my family. It felt so good. If I could, I would do that everyday, or at least every weekend. I only wish that my aunt would have invested in some candles to keep the mosquitoes away. These bites on my ankles, arms, fingers, and legs are driving me crazy.
Sorry such a short post. Im just extra excited about seeing my family. Also I want to keep it positive and leave the negative happenings in the past where they belong.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Hip-Hop....WTH!!??
Song of the Day: Hip-Hop is Dead by Nas
Recently I viewed a radio interview with Rick Ross' baby momma. She is publishing a book (through G-unit, Strike 1) telling her story and the deepest aspects of their relationship. She talks about how small his penis is, how little he pays in child support and how wack he was for being a former police officer. Maybe I have been out of the loop since I dont watch nearly as much BET as I used to, but I dont see anything wrong with being a police officer turned rapper. Ross had to get his paper somehow. Anyway, is this what hip-hop has come too? Do people really think that the only way to promote themselves is to point out the downfalls of others? Why is this hoe so bitter? Let's assume that he really isnt paying child support (this girl accusing Ross of not paying, Strike 2), why wont she just have him in court getting an order for him to pay? Obviously, she doesnt truly care about her children. She wants to be a famous "baby momma of a rapper". I dont believe any self respecting woman would put herself or her children through the hoops of the media circus. She is also wrong for putting out all of his business. No one needs to know their bedroom business. And why G-Unit.....????? The wackest "confederation" in hip-hop, well next to Bad Boy,and she decides to align herself with 50.....DOES SHE WANT TO BE CLOWNED FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE!?!?!?!?
Why hip-hip? What happened to simple beefs, the ones that end when the two rappers call a peaceful truce and do a hot collaboration that everyone will bump in the summertime. Why do rappers have to get personal with one another? I believe that personal attacks come about when a rapper (50) feel like he cannot attack his opponent (Ross) lyrically. Ugh, is this what we are teaching the future generations? I hope to the Lord not. I hope this foolishness stops, or I might be forced to break out my old Ludacris cds just to get my daily supply of superb lyrical content.
Recently I viewed a radio interview with Rick Ross' baby momma. She is publishing a book (through G-unit, Strike 1) telling her story and the deepest aspects of their relationship. She talks about how small his penis is, how little he pays in child support and how wack he was for being a former police officer. Maybe I have been out of the loop since I dont watch nearly as much BET as I used to, but I dont see anything wrong with being a police officer turned rapper. Ross had to get his paper somehow. Anyway, is this what hip-hop has come too? Do people really think that the only way to promote themselves is to point out the downfalls of others? Why is this hoe so bitter? Let's assume that he really isnt paying child support (this girl accusing Ross of not paying, Strike 2), why wont she just have him in court getting an order for him to pay? Obviously, she doesnt truly care about her children. She wants to be a famous "baby momma of a rapper". I dont believe any self respecting woman would put herself or her children through the hoops of the media circus. She is also wrong for putting out all of his business. No one needs to know their bedroom business. And why G-Unit.....????? The wackest "confederation" in hip-hop, well next to Bad Boy,and she decides to align herself with 50.....DOES SHE WANT TO BE CLOWNED FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE!?!?!?!?
Why hip-hip? What happened to simple beefs, the ones that end when the two rappers call a peaceful truce and do a hot collaboration that everyone will bump in the summertime. Why do rappers have to get personal with one another? I believe that personal attacks come about when a rapper (50) feel like he cannot attack his opponent (Ross) lyrically. Ugh, is this what we are teaching the future generations? I hope to the Lord not. I hope this foolishness stops, or I might be forced to break out my old Ludacris cds just to get my daily supply of superb lyrical content.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Im a Working girl.....
Song of the day: Clockwork by Juelz Santana
Ok, I started working again at my first an only job, cashier at a grocery store. It hit me that I have been working there seasonally for three years, GO ME!!!! Most of the people were happy to see me again and I was happy to know everyone was still employed. The recession has hit my small city hard and lots of people have been laied off or are on a modified schedule. Thank God He watches over my family, friends, acquaintances and myself.
I feel like I am an efficient worker. I do what Im told and rarely need the help of a supervisor. I kinda like my job, but I hate wearing a uniform, standing on my feel all day, and dealing with customers who are mean and unappreciative. My "professional" job will start soon and I cannot wait.
Today something happened at work that pissed me off. Two African American men came in the store. As they came through my line, one guy was planning on buying a alcoholic energy drink. He laid the drink on the counter and walked out. His friend got a very upset look on his face and stood there, wondering what would happen next. He assumed his friend went to the car to get some more money. After about a minute, the second male left the store as well. I saw them both in a car. They proceeded to leave the store parking lot. I was so upset. What really happened?
Is it wrong that I feel other races judge all African Americans by the actions of a few? Maybe. I feel that other races do judge all African Americans by the actions of a few. Sometimes I judge other races the same way. It may be wrong, but we are all human. We cant help but to think that way. It goes back to Uncertainty Reduction Theory. This theory has a lot to do with the way people of other cultures interact and communicate with one another. Even though uncertainty is high, and an initial interaction has yet to take place, people of different races may think a certain way about a person of another race because of what they have seen. I feel it is the duty of all human kind to represent their race as the best one. Be care of how you act in public, you may be helping someone to for form a negative opinion about your race as a whole
Ok, I started working again at my first an only job, cashier at a grocery store. It hit me that I have been working there seasonally for three years, GO ME!!!! Most of the people were happy to see me again and I was happy to know everyone was still employed. The recession has hit my small city hard and lots of people have been laied off or are on a modified schedule. Thank God He watches over my family, friends, acquaintances and myself.
I feel like I am an efficient worker. I do what Im told and rarely need the help of a supervisor. I kinda like my job, but I hate wearing a uniform, standing on my feel all day, and dealing with customers who are mean and unappreciative. My "professional" job will start soon and I cannot wait.
Today something happened at work that pissed me off. Two African American men came in the store. As they came through my line, one guy was planning on buying a alcoholic energy drink. He laid the drink on the counter and walked out. His friend got a very upset look on his face and stood there, wondering what would happen next. He assumed his friend went to the car to get some more money. After about a minute, the second male left the store as well. I saw them both in a car. They proceeded to leave the store parking lot. I was so upset. What really happened?
Is it wrong that I feel other races judge all African Americans by the actions of a few? Maybe. I feel that other races do judge all African Americans by the actions of a few. Sometimes I judge other races the same way. It may be wrong, but we are all human. We cant help but to think that way. It goes back to Uncertainty Reduction Theory. This theory has a lot to do with the way people of other cultures interact and communicate with one another. Even though uncertainty is high, and an initial interaction has yet to take place, people of different races may think a certain way about a person of another race because of what they have seen. I feel it is the duty of all human kind to represent their race as the best one. Be care of how you act in public, you may be helping someone to for form a negative opinion about your race as a whole
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Prom Season is Killa Season...lol
Song of the day: Fancy by The Dream
Today was interesting, finally. The main thing that stuck out in my mind (maybe because it is the most recent) is the prom of the local high school. OMG some of those dresses were beautiful, some of them were a hot mess. I don't know. Maybe I have been away too long or maybe I am starting to mature, but those teenagers were ooozing with "ghetto". As bad as that may sound, It is the honest truth. I saw fan dressed, tu-tu dresses, paper mache accents, loud pastels, pearlized gray-pink, pimp canes, and not to mention the weaves..Those kids aint know what good fashion sense was. I just couldn't help but to wonder, "Is this what is really hot in the street now"? Does my African American culture believe that the loudest, most revealing article of clothing is the best one? I refuse to believe so. Some one has mis-educated the youth and told them it was cute to look a mess. Where are the mentors? We need some older, wiser, stronger citizens to lead the younger people in the right direction.
What would the world be like if everyone had common sense? Quite boring. There would not be anything to laugh at. But there would also not be a reason for my soul to shed tears from time to time.
Today was interesting, finally. The main thing that stuck out in my mind (maybe because it is the most recent) is the prom of the local high school. OMG some of those dresses were beautiful, some of them were a hot mess. I don't know. Maybe I have been away too long or maybe I am starting to mature, but those teenagers were ooozing with "ghetto". As bad as that may sound, It is the honest truth. I saw fan dressed, tu-tu dresses, paper mache accents, loud pastels, pearlized gray-pink, pimp canes, and not to mention the weaves..Those kids aint know what good fashion sense was. I just couldn't help but to wonder, "Is this what is really hot in the street now"? Does my African American culture believe that the loudest, most revealing article of clothing is the best one? I refuse to believe so. Some one has mis-educated the youth and told them it was cute to look a mess. Where are the mentors? We need some older, wiser, stronger citizens to lead the younger people in the right direction.
What would the world be like if everyone had common sense? Quite boring. There would not be anything to laugh at. But there would also not be a reason for my soul to shed tears from time to time.
Friday, May 15, 2009
First and Second full days home
Song of the day: Homecoming by Kanye West feat. Chris Martin
Yesterday was my first full day home. It felt good to wake up in my own bed. I didnt have to wake up early either, always a plus. Not a very eventful day. I did get to see some of my favorite people. My cousins, grandmother, hairdresser. I love them to death. Today was more eventful but not by much. I turned in my job application in a small town outside of the small city I live in. It was wierd driving through there. I graduated from high school there but I didnt want to be there agian. On the other hand, I had the urge to stop by my old high school. That urge quickly left. My hairdresser and I caught up. She even did my eyebrows for free. That really completed a much needed "Re-bossing". I ran errands for my mother, and then came home. Played with the nieces and then put them to bed. I have been looking for something interesting and age appropriate (18+) to do. That is very hard here. There arent that many clubs, not that I like to club but I think you know what I mean. Everything here is for kids, like skating, walking around the mall, Im just too old for that sort of thing. I would really love the hang out with my cousin, but she is preparing for her senior prom tomorrow. That should be interesting.
My love life is starting to suffer as well. I still keep in contact with my ex, who I love with all my heart. He lives about 13 hours away so seeing him is not in the question. I am single, so I am looking for someone to chill with, not a relationship, but someone who will be there when I want them and will go away when I need them to. There arent a lot of men who live here that have the qualities I desire in a friend, but I havent looked in a while either. I guess we will see in the future, the near future I hope.
Yesterday was my first full day home. It felt good to wake up in my own bed. I didnt have to wake up early either, always a plus. Not a very eventful day. I did get to see some of my favorite people. My cousins, grandmother, hairdresser. I love them to death. Today was more eventful but not by much. I turned in my job application in a small town outside of the small city I live in. It was wierd driving through there. I graduated from high school there but I didnt want to be there agian. On the other hand, I had the urge to stop by my old high school. That urge quickly left. My hairdresser and I caught up. She even did my eyebrows for free. That really completed a much needed "Re-bossing". I ran errands for my mother, and then came home. Played with the nieces and then put them to bed. I have been looking for something interesting and age appropriate (18+) to do. That is very hard here. There arent that many clubs, not that I like to club but I think you know what I mean. Everything here is for kids, like skating, walking around the mall, Im just too old for that sort of thing. I would really love the hang out with my cousin, but she is preparing for her senior prom tomorrow. That should be interesting.
My love life is starting to suffer as well. I still keep in contact with my ex, who I love with all my heart. He lives about 13 hours away so seeing him is not in the question. I am single, so I am looking for someone to chill with, not a relationship, but someone who will be there when I want them and will go away when I need them to. There arent a lot of men who live here that have the qualities I desire in a friend, but I havent looked in a while either. I guess we will see in the future, the near future I hope.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Basic Info
Ok, I told myself that I would blog this summer. My two best college friends told me that would be a great idea. I hope they are right.
Ok Im a college student. Im home for the summer in my small city that I love and hate. You will see why as I add posts.
I am an African American Woman. I love certain things about my culture, and hate others.
I am a firm believer that the Lord Jesus Christ is the son of God, died for my sins, is resurrected, and will return again to take the believers in Him to a home in paradise. I express my belief often, but will not force others to believe in the same. Each person is responsible for their home in the after life. It is my responsibility to make sure that people know what happened on the cross.
I LOVE MUSIC! I listen to a lot of different kinds and will usually put a song of the day and the beginning of each post.
IDK what else to say. I dont want all my business out on the internet. I do want people to be able to understand what I am talking about. Oh well, we will see how that goes as time passes on.
I just arrived home today. Tomorrow will be the first full official day of my summer vacation so who knows what will happen then.
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